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Realizations

During a recent prayer time, I was quietly fuming. I sat in front of the Blessed Sacrament and was just angry. I was spewing out frustration, anger, hurt, and a myriad of other unpleasant emotions.

My prayer journaling became more scribbly with too many exclamation points. And “WHY??????”s. But in all His goodness and patience. He just let me rage and spew.

One particular part of what has been on my heart is how I’ve been managing my day-to-day grind. And by managing, I mean NOT MANAGING. The daily to-dos and work and child raising has been particularly challenging lately. My anxiety has been through the roof and I’ve been struggling with cooling my temper, modulating my reactions and responses, and showing up with love for my family.

In my rage and frustration, I threw it back at God.

Why have you called me to motherhood and public health if I’m just going to break under the pressure of it all and fall short again and again?!

Short temper. Check.
Eye rolling. Check.
Spiraling. Check.
Crying. CHECK.
Numbing. Check.
Self-loathing. Double check.

But again, in His love and perfection, He threw it back to me.

Samantha, instead of reacting, just pray. Stop what you’re doing in that moment and pray. Stop spiraling. Start praying.

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Hi September!

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Hi September!

Happy September the first, I hope your trunks are packed as you head to the Hogwarts express. Or if you’re not en route to Hogwarts, happy regular first day of September. But today is fun because I’m going to show you my Sept monthly spread and last week’s and this week’s spreads and here are some seven “quick” takes.

1) Okay listen, last Sunday, I was typing out a very lengthy seven quick takes/planner week 35 post and DUH DUH DUH something happened with my computer and/or the inter webs and I lost the post. I was so frustrated that I slammed the lid of my laptop shut and sulked like a giant baby.

I’m over it. Clearly.

But as there is no use crying over spilled milk (regular milk, not breast milk because you should cry over that) and no use in crying over lost blog posts, here I am with a new post that will hopefully get to your eyeballs.

(I’ll just periodically save this post just in case.)

2) Last week was insanely busy, in fact, I had a seven day work-week. (Lest you think, I’m a big whiner… dentists typically/traditionally have a four day or fewer work-week because of the high burnout potential. It’s a very physical profession. If you didn’t know that, maybe I’ll punch out a day in the life of a public health dentist post soon. Would anyone want to read that? But, I took an all-day continuing education course last Sunday, had my normal five days, which in and of itself is a lot, then had to go into work yesterday because a doctor called in sick last minute and all of my other doctors were not available.)

WHEW. But I’m going to try to relax today. That is after I corral my kids during mass which truthfully is a work out let me tell ya. And now you probably think all I do is complain so let’s get to the good stuff!

3) I have been looking forward to September since last September because this month is the Blessed Is She writer’s retreat! It’s one of my fav weekends of my year. It’s insanely restorative and life-giving and I just love my girls and Jesus. Last year I was a million weeks pregnant and apparently, you’re not allowed to fly if you have a baby near crowning so I missed the retreat and was super bummed about it. I have high FOMO.

But I am gearing up to travel to the writer’s retreat and I’m going to be giving so many hugs.

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Planner | Week 34 and other things

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Planner | Week 34 and other things

Happy Sunday friends.

The Wetterholm clan is recovering from some kind of stomach bug so that’s been fun. And so terrible. But we are all on the mend thankfully and good thing too because Emma starts kindergarten tomorrow.

For this week’s planner spread in my Blessed Is She liturgical planner, I wanted to do an ode to the end of summer and the start of school. I threw in a bunch of inspirational quotes which I sense I am going to need because I’m already emotional at this next milestone.

But here is what has been going on this week.

1. Like I said, everyone has been sick, except Paul somehow. He has an immune system like a robot. Wednesday night, our sweet Theo started vomiting and having diarrhea. I took him to the doctor on Thursday and she diagnosed a bad stomach virus. On Friday evening, just as we were planning to go out to dinner for my mom’s birthday, then Henry started throwing up. Then Emma threw up over night. And I was sick all day yesterday. But thankfully, the symptoms have let up for all of us today but we are still in recovery mode. And Theo has had MANY, MANY dirty diapers so that now we just let him waddle around naked.

2. Work has been busy and challenging. There are some administrative and staff challenges that can cause stress but I am trying not to take it home with me.

3. Emma starts Kindergarten tomorrow! We have her teacher assignment and we have heard great things about her. I’m so excited for her and nervous all at the same time. We bought her new backpack and lunch box and my momma heart is bursting.

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Planner | Week 33

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Planner | Week 33

Happy Sunday friends and planner enthusiasts!

Well this is blog post take two. I was ready to hit publish and somehow the post went POOF and disappeared. I grumbled for 0.2 seconds but oh well.

I had a lot of fun with this week’s planner spread. I used the empowering women sticker book by The Happy Planner. I am loving the full size of my Blessed Is She liturgical planner. It has more space to play and plan. Have you ordered your Blessed Is She planner yet? It’s not too late.

Well I finally ordered my plane ticket to travel to our annual Blessed Is She writer’s retreat. I was not able to make it to last year’s retreat because I was a whopping 37 weeks pregnant last year and apparently plane travel during that phase of pregnancy is frowned upon. I’m still not convinced.

Also, if you need me this week you will likely find me curled up under my covers sobbing and scrolling through baby pictures of Emma. She starts kindergarten next week and I am a bucket of tears and emotions. I just cannot believe that my sweet little girl is starting this next phase. I am so proud of her and honored to be her mother. And now I’m crying again.

Well now I’ll show you this week’s spread then get back to sipping sweet tea on the couch while (somehow) both boys nap.

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Planner | Week 32

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Planner | Week 32

Ladies and gents, it’s back! It’s a weekly spread planner post.

I fell out of the habit in the spring because truthfully, my schedule got nuts. I still did my weekly spread, but did not have the wherewithal to post it. But I am hoping to be more consistent with my new 2019-2020 liturgical planner to show you all how I’m setting it up. As I get into a rhythm, I also hope to show you the spread after it’s been used for the week. FINGERS CROSSED.

Here is this week’s spread in my Blessed Is She full size planner. I think it’s going to take me a few weeks to get used to the full size layout again as I was working with the mini last year. But I am completely loving it.

I also want to talk about something else too…

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